"Dead is Dead" (Lost Thoughts)

It's been a rough morning so this is going to be all over the place. So far my math is holding up and I am proud of that.

So last night on Lost, it was a Ben-centric episode and those are always good. We learned that Widmore was banished for leaving the island too much and for having Penny while still an Other. He wanted Ben to kill BabyAlex and her mother but Ben couldn't do that so he took Alex and warned Danielle to run away when she heard whispering. He tried to kill Penny but was stopped by the sight of little Charlie and then Desmond pwned him big time and that is why he was hurt. He told Sun to apologize to Desmond if he didn't survive so either he felt remorse or he knows Desmond is important. Of course, Ben seems to have lost his ability to know what the island wants.

John Locke is all cryptic and annoying once more. He makes Ben live up to his word and summon the smoke monster (which is apparently done by pulling a drain, but then Smokey lives in the sewer system or vents). But it doesn't appear fast enough for John so he takes Ben to the temple. We see a hieroglyphic of what looks like Anubis, the jackal-headed Egyptian god of the afterlife summoning a monster much like Smokey who may be named Cerberus, the watch dog of Hades. Then the monster pours out of the vents and shows Ben his life with Alex and how he let her die. He looks like he is going to cry. And then Alex shows up and tells him it is his fault and slams him against the wall making him promise to follow John Locke, who Ben was plotting to kill. But the island really doesn't want that and Ben should know if he had thought about John's history with the island. John is concerned about Ben and Ben, almost sobbing, tells him that "it let him live."

A couple of things occurred to me. When Ben saved BabyAlex and Widmore told him to kill her and Ben asked if that was the island or Widmore talking. Was that the turning point and why no babies could be born on the island? Is that why Ben was so obsessed with fixing that problem thus bringing Juliet aboard? Also Alex was the monster since it has done the dead people thing before (Yemi-Eko) And Ben had a similar experience as Eko with the smoke showing him imagines of his life. But Eko didn't not repent like Ben and died.

I am much annoyed with Illana and that whole thing. I think she must work for Widmore and caught Sayid knowing that it would land her on the island. I don't know if Cesar was in on it or that was just bad luck, but Ben totally shot him dead so either we will never see him again or the island will do something interesting with him.

Next episode is a Miles episode. I am so excited since I lobes him. It's almost as good as a Hurley episode.